36 F. So in my last relationship we only had sex like once a month and it pretty much was to the point where I felt like I was begging for sex. I tried all the things within my power (he didn't budge much to suggestions, talks, doctors) and it was pretty much two years of me getting rejected, sexually. I had some other past issues with sexual rejection (I don't think another ex was interested in me, he was using me for other things).

This year through some happenstance and a self push out of my comfort zone I got a fwb. First time was great but he was pretty much leading (which I love). Super busy dude. I get it. But always flirted with me over text. I didn't bug him much but then one day while we're texting I attempted to be sexy and mentioned something about giving him head and he never responded. After 5 days of no response to thst texted, I texted him I didn't want to do it anymore.

So now I'm realizing it's all starting to add up and I have a fast growing fear of sexual rejection. I'm trying not take everything personally but damn I feel like shit. Like I don't need to dom or anything I just want to feel sexy enough that if I try to flirt or ask for sex from an appropriate party it doesn't blow up in my face and leave me feeling annoying and desperate.

Any useful thoughts or advice? Besides masturbation of course. How did you guys get over it?

Note: I'm not unattractive, I workout and I know my sex isn't bad. Can't afford a sex therapist right now so anything would be helpful.

Edit: I'm pretty sure I got my answer. Our relationship or their view of me probably sucked which essentially lead to lack of sex.