Lately whenever I (38F) masturbate to orgasm, I end up feeling kind of lonely and sometimes I even cry afterwards just to release the tension... I never used to get this and I'm not sure where it's coming from, but it's making me not want to get sexy with myself because of the intense drop I seem to get from the orgasm high. :( It feels like post-nut clarity but a lot more intense.

I'm thinking of trying to do some kind of aftercare for myself, like maybe having a cup of tea and a blanket or a plushy or something to hug to try to soothe my brain... Just wondering has anyone else had this, why it was happening and what did you do to make yourself feel better?