I'm pan, and I've always wanted to explore the back alley, but have always been scared because 1) owie if not careful and 2) STD if not hyper clean. Like I've seen porn, I know how to solve the first issue: start small. But you still have to start. You can't even just buy a set of training dildos because you have to clean it, and no one will tell you how. Pornhub will offer some advice between regular porn, so good luck going in there and not getting distracted, schools pretend anything non hetero or monogamous doesn't exist, and it's not like I can go to my parents (both of whom are bisexual) and ask "How do I fuck my ass?" even though I know that they know!

I don't know where to start. I looked up douches and enemas online but they're all confusing and intended for what seems like purely medical use. I need a sexual hygene device but amazon is not very helpful on the matter.

I don't know how so many gay men learned, other than through experience with other gay men, but I don't want to have sex without trying it on myself first. I don't want my theoretical partner to judge me because I'm bad at it. I don't want to do it on my own and do it wrong. The moment I find brown on my dildo I think i'd be done.

I really just need an older gay man to take me under his wing and tell me how to properly put stuff in my butt lol