TW: mentions of SA

I (24 F) have a long history of being SA’d, going back to early in my childhood. I think this has impacted my long term views of sex. Most of the time I don’t enjoy sex, and even when I do, I feel disgusted with myself afterwards. I really struggle with dating, because the expectation of sex makes me feel like I’m selling my body, like I have to have sex with people in order to get them to talk to me/spend time with me. I feel like, without sex, no man would ever see me as worth his time, so I feel like I’m paying for his attention with sex.

Clearly I have a lot of issues going on here, but I was just wondering if anyone has any advice on how to enjoy sex (because even when I consent I usually dislike the entire experience) and how to stop seeing a guy’s sexual interest in me as meaning that he doesn’t care about me as a person, and only a body.