So, on New Year’s Eve, I had a ONS. For context, I’m FtM, pre op, and almost a year on T. I’m not too experienced with sex, but I know what I want. It started out pretty fun and normal- I could tell we were both a bit nervous but (for me at least) nerves started to calm down as we started.

Skipping over details, the guy couldn’t finish. He claimed I was just “too wet” for him. Like I said, I’m not too experienced, but what he said has made me really self conscious. I did everything he asked of me and tried every position he wanted and stuff

He couldn’t stay hard, and blamed it on me being too wet and he couldn’t penetrate- He had started fingering me at one point and scratched me multiple times. I had told him it hurt but I think he thought I was enjoying it. As a result, there was a little blood that came out and he was disgusted. I’m really ashamed of that- He also wouldn’t make eye contact with me and I think he was trying to imagine a woman instead of me.

I’m mostly posting this to see if I did anything wrong. I don’t want to have another experience like this.