Hello (21F) I have been in deep thought for awhile about my sex life and how I haven’t really experienced anything amazing like most people have yet at young age with their bf/gf. I would consider myself as a demisexual . So, I really cannot wait to get married and have my own husband so I can slut him tf out! I want to do everything to him !! Is that bad ? I’ve been celibate close to a year now .
I’ve literally been craving some healing / powerful transcending sex.. but I just cannot allow another dude in me that doesn’t love me and we have connection. S**t is pointless to me now having casual sexual with no meaning especially while I’m at a vulnerable stage in my life! I don’t think I could just have casual sex with someone and go on about my day . Use to but now I can’t ! Apart of me feel regret and I feel like those guys know apart of me I don’t want them to know that I should have kept sacred . Apart of me wish I really would have saved myself for marriage . Is that a bad thing that I think this way ? Is there something wrong with me..