My friend recorded this guy and I having sex. It was consensual. She finally sent it to me and OMFG it felt like it confirmed all of my worst fears about how I look and sound during sex. When I'm bottoming, it's so intense that I basically become incoherent. I'm just uncontrollably spasming, groaning, and panting. Afterwards I often quite literally can't move for a good 15 minutes.

I've been really fucking sensetive and orgasm very easily after 3 years of HRT. I am very, very self-conscious about it. The guy saw it and said it was super hot. Every partner I've been with had said that they love my reactions. Now though all I can think about is the sound of me bleating like a tortured goat and spasming like a woman possessed. I don't know how to get past it.

Would y'all actually find such reactions from your partner hot?