I like the idea of being eaten out. When I see it on porn or on TV it looks amazing and awesome and incredible. It looks like it feels so good and is this toe curling, head spinning, mind blowing experience. I have tried everything I can to experience that to no avail. I try to guide my partner and tell him what to do but nothing works. Everything is incredibly over stimulating. Going to slow or fast is over stimulating. Going hard or soft is over stimulating. I can make myself orgasm every time but I can't seem to relay that message on to a guy who is eating me out. It's really deminished my moral. I hate it. I want to orgasm, I want being eaten out to at least feel good. Like the kind of good that leads to orgasms and head spinning and losing control. It's just not like that. I don't understand why. At first everyone told me it was his fault but we've really tried to understand what my body likes and none of it is satisfying. Being fingered feels good and having sex feels good but neither could make me cum. Neither brings that warm feeling inside or that pressure that builds inside or anything like that. I feel broken. I am not really sure what to do. I feel like I've tried everything at this point. My SO and I have watched porn, the Nina Hart video, anatomical videos, just experimenting, and it all just hurts. Even over underwear hurts. I want that mind blowing feeling. I want someone to make me cum. I've been in a relationship for 2 years and I still haven't experienced an orgasm from another person. It really sucks. Yes we have incorporated vibrators but it makes my SO cum really fast during sex and it is difficult to make me cum with one. What is wrong with me? Honestly how do I fix this? I want to really enjoy sex. I don't want it to just feel good or be a connection, I want it to overwhelm me with how good it is. I want sex to make my insides warm. I want sex to be a rush or a high that I come down from. Instead it's just an activity that I like. Does this make sense? Also I am a sex addict. I think this is what has causes my sex addiction is not feeling that feeling during sex. It has made me obsessive. It's really being detrimental to my life. How can I just enjoy sex? I'm very comfortable with my partner. No sexual/physical/emotional abuse/rape. I'm just broken or something.

Also please don't say I'm obsessing over it too much. Honestly I didn't use to. And then as this problem continued my worry over it became stronger. I try to lose myself during sex I really do but it doesn't feel good enough to not. It just feels good. I don't even worry about it during sex. But after sex I hate myself because I went through another sex and didn't figure anything out. I don't really know what to do anymore.