I apologize for any misunderstanding, I was just curious about your opinion, I am editing and sharing it again.

Firstly guys i am not a natural english speaker This post may contain some typos and oddities

My experienced brothers and sisters please help me Since the city I live in is not big, I found it myself in a difficult way, not from a site like escortnews. And I went. The woman was about 8 years older than me, I did not have a very disgraceful relationship, and even asked if I was taking medication in some places (This event flattered me a little. As a result, I did not ejaculate during intercourse, I ejaculated when the woman helped me. (This helps me to console myself a little, as a result, you did not have a full relationship, you just experienced those situations. )But this service was not a good for my first sexual intercourse, now I feel very remorseful, I feel very remorseful about whether I should have saved myself for someone special, really, should the first relationship be with a very special person or is it not very important or is this not a complete relationship? I would appreciate it if you do not make hurtful comments because this issue really tired my head, I wanted to ask you, I don't want to hate sexuality because of this issue. I am psychologically very bad.