2021 I had an injury during intercourse that resulted in a positive diagnosis of Peyronies Disease (a curvature of the erect penis). I physically couldn’t have sex for over a year without pain and my curve was so intense I wouldn’t be able to enter anyone. I had to mentally shut off my sex drive and forced myself not to make any connections with anyone until mid 2022. Almost unalived myself due to the depression. Over time my condition slowly started correcting itself into a straight penis but at the cost of some girth and length loss. Went from a girthy 6.25” to a thinner 5.5”. The fact I can have sex again is a miracle, but it feels like i’m driving someone else’s boat, an underpowered boat that doesn’t run like it used to, and it has a couple dents in it. I used to be SO sexually confident and took pride in my penetrating capabilities. And now I get performance anxiety to the max. I had a sexual experience with the sexiest AND sweetest girl I’ve met yesterday and I couldn’t perform so I focused on her needs with my mouth and hands. She was super understanding with where i’m coming from and expressed how open she is to being patient while I reclaim myself and sexual confidence, even asked me a lot of questions to make sure she can do what she can to make me comfortable. I’m partly venting but also wondering if anyone has any mental cues to get out of their head and into their body during vulnerable moments. I’m also in therapy with a sex therapist but we’re still in the beginning stages