I’m a 37 year old FTM trans. I started testosterone 2 years ago. I’ve only been with women my entire life and had zero interest in men until now.

About 6 months ago, I’ve caught myself looking at my male coworker so that was confusing. Ever since, I’ve become more and more attracted to men. But there’s a problem. I’ve never touched a cock before so I have no idea what to expect. It’s embarrassing admitting that as a 37 year old.

How do I find someone that will let me explore with them…for science of course ;)

I would try Grindr or something like that but I’ve never use anything like that. How do I do this safely? This is my darkest secret, no one knows or suspect that I may be gay.