I have some sexual desires and kinks but the thing is that I dislike nearly all of them. Everyday I need to think about them, even a lot of things reminds me of them and it makes me crazy. It is like this for years and I don't really know what I should do. The biggest kink is feminization, I am a guy and have the urge to be feminine and being dominated by someone. Everytime when I see a attraktive woman, even fictional ones, I need to think about being her. I have the wiered urge to complitly change myself because of it. I even don't really think about having sex with women anymore. This topic takes a lot of space in my mind and became a real burden. I don't understand why I have such desires and thoughts despite I dislike everything. Yes, everybody should do with what he feels right and has fun with. But I don't feel right with my thoughts and I don't know what I should do. For years I am carrying it around and more and more I get frustrated with my situation. How can I forget all this and leave it behind?