This is literally eating away at me and I feel cringey about it, but a few days ago, I (25F) hungout with one guy at his (26M) place. It was our 2nd time hanging out, I wasn't fully sexually attracted to him yet but I wanted sex (it's been a few months). Because of this, my blowjob game was pretty weak (I usually try to finish the guy off with oral, and I have to say my blowjobs are otherwise pretty good, but I was trying to rush to sex this time). We ended up not being able to have sex because I was quite tight and fingering was overstimulating (his fingering game was so good though). After he tried putting it in my mouth a little more (I stopped to tell him I'm not good with cum and I think I also kept gagging because of the pre-cum), he ended up masturbating over me to finish off.

I asked him how my blowjobs were after and he said it was good, and I lied and said that I can't go down on him any longer than I was because "it hurts my mouth". (Not true, I just felt awkward about it). I've been looking for a decent fwb and he seemed like he could be one but he hasn't been super responsive over text now. I feel bad 😩 Did I mess it up?