Hi,I am not watching them for some time but I was watching some femdom porn and headscissor videos.Then I started to really like it and get turned by them.But Im a virgin and never had any sexual experiences before in my life.

The thing is I am embrassed to explain my desires to women.I feel like if I tell these to hot girls they will think me as a less masculine man and get turned off by it.I want to quit having these desires

And my question is if I have normal sex is there any chance that i dont really like these things and I just loved to watch them on screen ? Is there anyone who experienced something like this ? I really want to know if quitting having these desires is possible and if yes how can I do it ? Thanks in advance for all the answers.Btw I dont know if it is related but Im 22 years old.

Note : When i was a kid I enjoyed seeing dominant women in video games and movies/series.I remember watching dominant woman fight in movies videos and liking them so much.So I think maybe Events in my childhood triggered these desires.