Her personality is great. We spoke on the phone for an entire month prior to meeting in person. We spoke in length on the daily.

I got attached to hearing her sexy voice. 2 hour phone calls each night before going to bed.

I do (not) normally wait that long before meeting up. She was very shy about meeting. She had not been on a date in a while. She is divorced. Her husband was her only relationship. I was willing to take things slow. However, our long phone calls created a mutual attachment.

I am 35 years old. She is 50 years old. Her appearance would suggest she was around 60 rather than 50. She looks nothing like her photos. She is obese. Snow white hair.

I knew immediately that I was not attracted to her. I felt disappointed. I was angry that I wasn't attracted to her. I didn't want our connection to disappear. I decided on both a second and third date. I was trying not to be so shallow.

Third date is when her panties came off. She took me in her mouth. It was too dark for me to see her face. She gave me a blow job. (I was thinking about my ex from Philadelphia in order to stay hard.)

I then tried to enter her pussy. Nope. Soft dick. Immediately soft. We continued to try to get me up. (Alcohol can also give me trouble achieving an erection) I was drunk. She was not drunk. At the end of the day, I was unable to fuck her.

She took it personally. She continued to question me as to why I couldn't get hard. I lied .. I didn't want to hurt her feelings.

She continues to ask for another meet up.. what should I do ?? I feel bad about this situation.