First off, im sorry if this is the wrong sub. If yall know the right one for this, please lemme know...

So it was recently pointed out to me that I may not actually be into guys, but I date guys because my subconscious thinks that I'm "supposed to".

I hate sex. Absolutely hate it. It has always been a chore for. On the few occasions I did enjoy it, I only enjoy it till bout the 5 minute mark. Then I'm faking it while thinking "omg is this almost over?".

But I also have a very traumatized past with men and not sure if that's the reason?

I love women. Their bodies and everything about them have always just been Absolutely beautiful to me. I have never been attracted to mens bodies. Only once in a while I'll see a shirtless guy on tiktok and im like hm cute. When I've been sent dickpics it does Absolutely nothing for me.

When i watch porn it's a variety: gay men, lesbians, orgies, straight couples, a little of everything.

The idea of dating a girl has always felt very weird to me because I'm very grossed out by bodily fluids, and could never imagine eating a girl out. I've only ever played with a girl once and it was just hands. But I loved it and it was the only time anyone who wasn't myself has made me cum. Ever. I'm 27!

But I've almost always dated men. Idk how to describe why I enjoy it, but I do enjoy it if we take the sex out...

Anyone else in this boat? How did yall know for sure?