This feels a bit cringe but I just gotta vent this. Up until recently I wasn't bothered too much by sex, relationships, etc. This mainly started since a year or so. I made this account to really start exploring my sexual self.

I participated in NNN for the memes and sexual exploration, and last year did the big nut alone. It was great on one hand, but during the month and after everything was done I felt this immense sense of loneliness. That feeling never really went away.

For the majority of this year I mainly focused on dating or the intimate connection, mainly via apps. Although with very little result but there's a start. During this month the desire for a sexual partner has increased more and more. It makes sense, but I know I've had this feeling a lot longer but have been ignoring it. During the month I had a few chats with other participants of NNN and this is where I really started to notice it. The lack of that physical connection is starting to bother me more. Maybe a one-timer is enough to satisfy this feeling. I don't know.

I'm obviously affected by not having nutted for a month, so I'm more driven than before. I noticed this last year too. I don't want to nut alone. I want to explore my sexual self (IRL, not just reddit) and use this boost in interest to help me with it.

I know there's nothing wrong with being a virgin. That specifically is not my issue. I just desire a physical connection and that is starting to bother me. If you have any advice on this, feel free to share :)