i ended up talking with this man who i fucking hated. one time i blocked him and he spammed me from several different numbers and then started cashapping me to unblock him. i did and i ended up telling him if he wanted to stay unblocked he had to send me money and he did. the idea that i held so much power and he was so desperate for me despite all the vile things i said about him turned me on so much. we’d do this on occasion for a few months, and sometimes he’d pay me and id unblock him and berate him until i made him come over in person so i could tell him how dumb he was while he pleasured me and wasnt allowed to have me. an incredibly powerful feeling and now i really only feel turned on when i have some sort of control

i was perhaps thinking into getting into findom but i honestly dont rly know much about that stuff and i dont have a lot of rly good boundaries bc i dont know whats appropriate in those kinds of relationships