I have never had an interest in women really I am not into vaginas. I don't like female parts. I am generally repulsed by female genitalia and female structure or even female faces. But I also am attracted to feminine men I am generally attracted to femininity and weirdest thing is one time when I was 22 it was not a sexual thing at all. It was a context of just having seen another woman's breasts and I was like mesmerizing a magnetic level. By their boobs. See I've always had a fascination with boobs. And I wanted to suck really badly. Now I know that that is a part of me. That I feel that way. Weirdly. That's the only thing on females I like are boobs. But generally I like men. Overall. I think I like skinny men. Generally. In fact if I ever am attracted to men who are overweight I feel it is uncomfortable. In a sense. Also other aspects of me with men. I do not really enjoy getting eaten out. I mean I enjoy it. I need it to actually have sex. But it doesn't give me orgasms. I particular need penis and I love sucking dick. I am very very very very very attracted to the male phenotype. And when I masturbate I enjoy think of two men having sex with each other. I don't like to think of women. But always thought. Now the boobs part. I never can really categorize that. Then there's the whole aspect of trans women. Which I am totally into. But then people always think that that means I am bi. But it's like that's the thing. That is crossing a line when it comes to crossdressers. I prefer to be with men. That I can imagine cross-dressing. And looking hot. I always thought that was more of a reproductive angle though. Kind of thing therefore context in that regard.

Now there's more to this. When I was 18. I actually thought I was asexual. Because I don't think I actually like men. What I mean is I don't like anyone. And so sometimes it comes off like that I'm asexual. The problem is. It's not just like that. I like a certain energy from men. And that is a controversial energy. From what I can understand let's delve into that first.

So when I was 18. Going on 19 that's when I started having these sex dreams. And this was the only sign of me actually having sexual attraction to anyone. But it would always be towards guys was a certain energy. Now the energy. I never paid attention to. That it was tied into the person themselves. But one time there is this one person. That I currently work with now that has a small version of that energy not a heavy version of that energy I guess that energy is concerning to people. And I realize that maybe it's connected to something bad. But anyway this energy is the thing that made me have some sexual interests in men. I'm going back to when I was 18 on 19. I would have these wild wild sex dreams. About a very handsome guy with that energy. I have a version of that energy. Sexually like ravaging me. Like violently having sex with me but consensually.So that's the reason I've always considered myself attracted to mad because I specifically to have sexual interest. Consistently it's been like that. But I don't personally think emotionally of men. Or women. Have interacted with feminine people. Sometimes and can emotionally connect. To some capacity. I don't have emotional interest. I'm more physical.

In my personal life. If also notice like I just generally prefer like men sexually very but not like in an emotional sense so for me I prefer hooking up. And I've gone off really good off of men that I'm attracted to. That have the particular energy that I'm attracted to. So I don't know what this makes me. Some people like to call it by sexual. I like to call it straight because I would never be with an actual woman? Cuz I don't like female genitals.so what is this asexual bisexual or straight? I realize. From understanding heterosexual people about. I actually like the people that are attracted to. I personally don't have to. And never really thought of it that way.