This is a difficult and embarrassing post. I’m a totally normal guy with a normal/ borderline boring life with the exception that I can’t stop thinking about my wife cheating with a co worker two years ago.

We had only been engaged 6 weeks when she told me that she had slept with a guy from her work. It was totally out of character and shatters my world but we got through it.

In the past year the pain and anger has changed into some type of arousal. I spend my time thinking about that night, piecing together the bits of information I know about and imagining what else they got up to. Ive even went into the company Facebook page to look at photos they posted from that night - even typing this out seems insane and fucked up.

Ive obviously got some type of kink or fetish - I think it’s important to say I was cheated on before and had no such feelings. Has anyone experienced similar or can advise?? Is this something that will pass with time??

Appreciate that i haven’t given much detail but can if it’s of assistance.