hate that I even need to ask this, but I’m desperate at this point and advice would be much appreciated. last night I had sex with a guy for the first time and he put on a condom. once we finished and he pulled out, the condom was nowhere to be found and I instantly freaked out obviously.

I don’t know him well and kinda just assumed the worst so I accused him of taking off the condom without me noticing. He insisted that he would never do that, and said he didn’t notice that it came off so it’s probably inside me. We went back and forth arguing about it for awhile until I eventually just made him leave.

For the past 24 hours I’ve been trying to feel around for the condom with my fingers, tried bearing down for a while, and even had my ex come help me feel around for it, but nothing. The thing is, I feel a weird pressure/fullness which is making me think that the condom is actually in there? But I’m also prone to anxiety and my brain making up symptoms.

I’m on birth control so I’m not necessarily concerned about getting pregnant, I just want to get this figured out so I can either apologize for basically accusing this guy of SA or tell him off and come to terms with the fact that I was SAed

I’m still on my parent’s insurance so I’m really terrified of going to the doctor and having them see or ask me what the visit was for.

Any ideas of what I should do???