Im 21m and i cant imagine myself having sex at all or really just being in any sexual scenario. Im not asexual but it is just not a situation i can imagine myself being in. Im super shy no matter what i do to break out of my shell is sex is such a delicate matter to approach when talking about it with someone. I cant imagine it being well recived if i bring it up with anyone, let alone the feeling of wanting it being mutual and reciprocated back towards me.

Im almost done with college and soon ill be back in my rural home town. Is it likely this is just something ill never experience? I couldnt connect with anyone in college, a place where this is apparently supposed to be easy. I feel like ive missed my chance and that kinda makes me sad.