So im 21 and a college senior. I have never been in a relationship and dont think i ever will. Looking at women in a sexual light feels wrong and degrading to me. I just cant imagine it being wanted and im not that good looking so i cant imagine any of them feeling that way about me. Im also not that interesting or charismatic either. Suffice to say i dont think relationships or sex are on the table for me and i think that is causing me to view both of them as warped and for me to see them as creepy and inapproperate.

I really wish i didnt even have a sex drive if i cant do anything about it, it feels kinda pointless tbh.

I know im technically not that old but every single time ive tried to ask out a girl or if i match with one on a dating app I somehow mess it up. Also ill be out of college soon so ill be too busy in the imediate future to find love and before i know it ill be in my 40s and by then things will be pretty much impossible then.