My boyfriend, let’s call him David used to be one of those “gayest straight guys”, meaning he and his buddies would engage in all kinds of gay behaviors, sometimes going further and further into it until one goes “eeew” and backs down. These were usually very funny, but also… I found them to be incredibly hot.

When me and Daid started dating I initiated and encouraged all kinds of gay/bi behaviors and fantasies. At the beginning mostly innocent teasing, later on not so innocent ones. Because again I fount them incredibly hot, seeing how far I can push things before he backs down.

We did some butt play, on his butt and I managed to make him cum from prostate simulation alone. Seeing his dick throbbing and cuming from butt being fucked it fascinated both of us. I started teasing him about another guy fucking him while doing butt play on him.

Then David expressed desire to actually be fucked by a man, to have a guy cum inside his but.

And while the idea is making me incredibly horny, I also feel like I pushed things too far and am in the panic mode.

Because David wasn’t secretly BI, he didn’t had any gay/I erotic fantasies until I started initiating and encouraging them. He wouldn’t lie about this because… why would he hide that from me at this point?

So I keep thinking id I push David to becoming BI?

Or maybe he s not BI at all but it’s just some sort of dirty/humiliating kink I encouraged.

Now I’m really split between going for it, because I never felt so horny about anything. And backing down because I’m afraid, I feel like I could be doing something bad and harmful.

Help 😐