I'm a 24M dude who's a bit of a quiet introverted person, although I've been working on it and slowly getting out of my shell, but that means for most of my life I've been jerking off a lot and watching porn haha (just for context if it helps). Recently I've got kinda curious. Visited some escorts (Although that's a whole other conversation ig. But yes been keeping safe and everything).

But, my thing is, I don't really feel much on my penis as I would like to, both during penetration and bi. I can hardly get off from it either. With handjobs I do seem to get off, maybe cause I'm used to it. But it's a surprising lack of sensation from bi and piv. I've done it with a few of them before, so obviously I know it's me and not the person, although I do feel a definite increase in sensation with some people, but still definitely not enough, it's almost like gentle graze of finger tips to me. I bought Okamoto 001 condoms today and used that during the session instead of the ones they provide since it's ultra thin and stuff, but it's still the same.

Maybe it's my tight hand grip? Cause I have a fleshlight and when I first got it I was surprised by how smooth and sensation-less it felt, and I rely more on the suction when I use it, so maybe this is the same, and I’m too used to tightness? Maybe it's my unconventional childhood masturbation method: I would rub the foreskin against the penis head, horizontally with my fingers spread out, but now I use that and the normal way interchangeably. Don't think it's porn that rewired my brain since I'm mostly at full mast throughout, and I watch increasingly realistic, 'women-friendly'/amateur stuff as I get older. Or maybe I’m not used to the whole deal/ some anxiety on a subconscious level that I’m not aware of, and the commercial/fake nature adds to it?