Like, I basically wake up masturbating, it feels like. I don't start going at it on purpose. And I'm also a lot more... hmmm, "experimental"? Like normally I don't do butt stuff. I have done it, and I guess it's enjoyable, but I just don't want to, whether or not it physically feels good, I'm just not into that. But when I wake up feeling like this, it's like I'm way interested in that. Like, way, WAY more. I don't really feel fully conscious during this time? Not sure how to describe it, but it feels like I'm watching a movie, sort of. I've still got control over my body, more or less. But my mind? Not really. If I did have full control of my mind, I wouldn't do this. Nothing bad has happened because of this, but it's still very disturbing, and gods above I wish I never go through that again. It doesn't happen very often, but it's still happened, oh I don't know, 4 or 5 times in the last year-ish.

Sorry if this is the wrong place to post this. If so, please at least tell me where a better place might be before you delete my post.