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Hi All,

So I had a issue with my parts and ended up in hospital with a procedure done to fix
However since having said issue and it's now been a week since recovery everything is still bruised and urgh

So i have had a few sleepless nights and looking for help or advice

My brain is like

What if it happens again? (according to google 1/10 have recurrent issues)
What if I can't get erect again (1/50 and depending on the length of the episode mine was 8hours)

Given both of those I'm not sure if i want sex or even masturbation as the worry of if it happens again also it can lead to the penis dying and at 40 years old I'm not ready to loose my junk

So yea my Brain just won't switch off around those issues, my gf of 5 years says she will stick by no matter what but i can't shake the issues in my brain and I already suffer with

Depression, Anxiety as it is

So yea any thoughts are welcome