Hey guys, I’ve been struggling with this for a while now and asking for some advice. Lately I’ve been worried that I will not find anyone who accepts me for being the weirdo I can be. I enjoy sex a lot. Mostly because i rarely get it, so the idea can get stuck in my mind. In my last relationship we started off strong. But at the end she stopped engaging with me for months at a time and when I brought this up with her. I’d get excuses like that was the beginning of the relationship. Now, that statement is running in my mind like wild. And I’m worried that I will not find anyone who’s willing to fulfill my desires. I long for a loving relationship. And I’m worried that means cutting a few things. After the relationship I wrote down a few things I wanted and sex and intimacy was one of the top. But also I’m worried because a lot of people don’t seem to value it as much as I do. There’s always those girls who say oh guys only want one thing and it’s disgusting. And that makes me scared when it comes to sex because I’m worried that my partner might think that because I enjoy it. I only want one thing from them. I’m worried I might only want one thing from them. Lately I’ve been seeing that I’ve been doing a lot more solo masturbation than usual and watching a lot of porn. Been trying to limit how much I consume by viewing porn alternatives like stories and audio. And that has help soothe my worries a bit. I’m also worried I might not find a partner who’s willing to engage with those activities with me :(. All this has made me lose a lot of confidence in myself, making me feel like I’m not good enough. Every time I do these activities, I subconsciously shame myself and make me feel worse. When the goal was just to enjoy my time. Any advice/reassurance is appreciated.