Advice needed please.

Hi everyone. 25 year old bi guy here. I was taken advantage of online when I was a minor and sent pics to much much older men. Never considered guys before they started texting me when I was younger. I find this has affected me massively growing up. I’m single 4.5 years. I hook up with men more often than women and I hate it. I do it when I don’t even want to. It’s like an addiction and it makes me so sad. Has anyone been through something similar ? It’s like as soon as I have a bit of time to myself I download apps and look for hookups. I hate myself for it. I hooked up with a fem guy yesterday and even driving to him I felt so deflated. I never feel like this with women.

Any advice appreciated.