I want to have sex sometimes. It’s very strange to say out loud since I’m known for being the shy/reserved girl who never talks to boys. I’m 19 but I basically have no romantic or sexual experience. I have never even made out with a guy before. It’s not that I haven’t had the chance too; many guys have made moves on me but I declined all of them. I guess purity culture is just really driven into my head. I think even the act of making out with someone hot but you aren't fully romantically involved in is "being a hoe or a slut” and many of the men Ive had talking stages think this to. I'm not saying I want to constantly sleep around, fuck or make out with every single person I see but I have fun sometimes without worrying about that kind of guilt or shame hanging over my head. For example, there was dude I was in a talking stage with and I so badly wanted to reach out and make out with him since he said he wanted to but decided not to since we should go as slow as possible/we aren't dating yet. What if my future partner that I want to marry thinks I'm gross? what if other girls or people find out what we did and now think Im gross for engaging in that behavior? What if men think Im easy when Im not? Any tips?