I had breakup sex for the first time ever yesterday with a guy I was dating for 5 months. Who I thought we were on the same page, but he only wanted it to be everything that felt like a relationship and sex, but not be a relationship.

I admitted I developed more feelings for him and it caused us to mutually end. In the moment I asked if he wanted to have sex one last time because our sexual chemistry was crazy good. Plus I never felt so safe with someone in every way. It was liberating and I actually had several orgasms, which I typically don’t have more than one - but I think my body just felt weight lifted off and was enjoying sex as just sex.

2 hours after he left, I felt an emptiness within me. I hate myself right now. More hurt. He’s back on dating apps already looking for new people to have sex with. It really fucking hurts. Don’t do breakup sex unless it’s mutual ending AND one person doesn’t like the other more.