I'm in my mid 30s and should probably be settling down. But whenever I get a long term partner that I love I totally lose any sexual interest in them.

I'll end up rather just maturbating a couple times a day without her knowing. Thinking about slutty girls. I've cheated on a few and then had to end it out of guilt. I'm not a good person.

I like dirty slutty sex. I've had loads of casual relationships and hook ups. And love the weird crazy sex. But their personalities are in no way something I'd want to settle down with or be in a relationship with.

But then in relationships with really nice caring kind considerate women. I will be into sex at the start but it gets boring real quick. And I just want to fuck other women casually. Like having my cake and eating it too.

It gets to the point where my long term partners start saying we don't have sex enough. Don't you like me?!?! But I just don't feel any sexual excitement towards them. Despite loving them and caring about them extremely deeply.

It's like I'm destined to be a cheater in a secuay unfulfilled marriage or single forever.

Sexual desire is at the polar opposite of romantic desire or life building desire.

Any ideas? Anybody feel similar?

I have been wondering if I am broken. With a warped sense of sexuality.