I (26M) am struggling with understanding what my sexuality is. Before you say “don’t worry about the label” I love myself and don’t really care about how I’m perceived. This is more so for personal closure.

Since young, I have always had interest in women. Never once questioned my sexuality until my later years when I was approached by a man and he asked to give me a blowjob. Without even thinking twice, I ended up doing it and safe to say, regretted it for a while. It got to the point where I started to wonder if I was gay. It even got to the extreme of me wondering if other people view me as a gay man even though I have been with plenty of women.

Here is where it gets really weird. For the past year or so, I have found that I enjoy receiving anal pleasure from women (finger, pegging, etc.) and since then have been wondering what an actual penis would feel like inside me. I am very open to the thought of it and am not repulsed at all. I think the most important part to this is, I am very attracted to men who have more feminine personalities. I don’t see myself dating another man but I am very much open to sexual experiences with them, even though I’m extremely picky about it.

Would love to hear some input on this and maybe help me understand what my sexuality could possibly be. Thank you all so much in advance 🖤