Attraction is difficult is difficult to explain for me, and most
wouldnt understand, sex to me is different depending on which gender im
with, but with one most of the time i would get rejected cause its not
sexy and fulfilling even though im more attracted to them, and the other
gender if i shared my whole myself with them, most of them would reject
me immediately for being me.

Sorry this still might be a bit vague, but heres the deal, i like
guys alot, and am very attracted to them, but i do not like anal sex, or
giving head, im most attracted to their upper body, ie chest , nipples,
back, shoulders and muscles, and of course their faces, watching two
hot guys making out and sucking each others nipples gets me rock hard
instantly, but if they strip and show their cock and ass, i 100% lose my
erection. Another thing is that i get some hate from gay men who think
im awful for being so selfish, i get the point,but as long as im
upfront about my intentions, i dont see the issue. And of course most
girls dont like bi guys, even alot of bi girls dont like us, and i think
thats totally hypocritical of them. So what should i do?