So i am 21 and have very poor social skills (and am very shy). Ive been in a few dates but they went very poorly, i believe im undatable and that is saddening. I often think about having a partner and it makes me feel happy in the moment but sad when j remember i will never have one.

I fantasize a lot about having sex and cuddling with women and just generally making them happy and spending time with them. It seems kinda cruel and almost taunting to be so shy and inept but have such a high sex and affection drive.

Is there any way to calm this besides getting a partner? I masturabate and it helps but i it feels incomplete, if that makes sense. It does not satisfy my urge to please and cuddle with a real partner. Will this urge fade fully one day?