Hey everyone. I'm a 20 year old guy and I haven't really been able to date or have sex yet because of my mental health and other reasons. I really want to but I'm not that confident with people and I don't know where to start. I wanted to get a sex toy (like a masturbator or something) so it could feel more realistic when masturbating but I'm not sure if its the best idea.

Would it be ok for me to get a sex toy for myself? Honestly I'd feel like a loser if I got one since I'm not having real sex but I'm really interested. Thoughts?

Edit: I've kind of realized that I only wanted this because I was lonely, now I'm thinking I shouldn't get one