I definetly am not asexual but i am very shy and and horrible in social situations to the point where it is likely ill never have sex. I messed up another dating app match the other day by going silent for several minutes when she wanted me to talk about something after she had been leading the conversation for an hour. I got ghosted right after this

Am i missing out on much? It seems like such a big thing but is also seems scary too. I honestly get by on porn and i really like amateur, genuine, loving stuff but it also makes me sad that im seeing something ill never have.

I know this reads as a dooming and dramatic but im just trying to be realistic and learn to come to terms with the fact there is a very good chance ill never have a relationship, let alone have sex.