Throwaway account…. So for as long as I can remember I’ve been a switch. Whenever I’ve had sex with past gf’s and current gf I’ve always been the one on top and I don’t think I like it that much. Now don’t get me wrong, I love having sex and making that connection with my gf but I just don’t think I like being on top all the time.

My gf doesn’t fit the description of anything I’m about to talk about and she doesn’t have the sexual personality to give me what I want. I love my gf, we talk about everything, and I talk and ask for her permission before adventuring and doing stuff like this. I’ve always been interested in older and more mature women (primarily mothers). I’ve always liked the way most carry themselves, the way they act, the way they talk, etc. and from my experience older women suit me a lot better than younger.

I’ve always wanted to be dominated, put on the bottom, and forced to do things. I want someone who can look or talk to me a certain way and actually make me WANT to submit. I wanna be semi talked to like a dog but not really. I’ve never had mommy issues but I wanna be able to call them mommy while we do stuff. I wanna be told to shut up and just do what I’m told. I want pretty much all the roles to be reversed. I’m the one being held down, being choked, being talked through it, being encouraged, and all that other good stuff. Now I’m not feminine or anything, I’m very masculine but damn I wanna have my kinks fulfilled sometimes.

Can y’all give me some insight on whether I should be insecure about it and what to do about these kinda things that I want. The help is much appreciated.