We always have dirty chats. We met on here about a year and a half ago. We've never seen each other naked and in the beginning was very exciting. He's taught me a lot of things about myself and sexuality. I even got a sex toy thanks to him. but now sometimes he just replies one word answers and seems not to want to waste time with me. But then he called me drunkly and said that he doesn't want me to talk about sex with other men because I belong to him. Then the next day he said he didn't remember saying that but if I mention I am on online dating apps, he gets jealous. Yet he is having one night stands left and right. I developed an unhealthy attachment to him. and don't know how to let go. He is the closest thing to a first time lover. I need advice I should know better but I am naive when it comes to men. He deleted me when he wants to and it hurts me. first he deleted me because I said I wasn't going to have sex with him if we met. Then he came back and said sorry and I forgave him. Then he deleted me again when he started dating another girl. I forgave him. because of my attachment. Now he says he wants me to date and think of my future

And when I went on a trip and wore an open back dress he said, "are you sure youre wearing that out?" He gets jealous. and that night he kept sending me pictures of his face like interrupting my night out. and if I mention any other men he starts acting cold.

I am trying dating apps now and gone a few dates. I've distracted myself but none of the guys ive dated have been solid. So I always go back to chatting with this guy and or he looks for me.