This isn’t me asking for a quick f*ck or thinking I’m “just shy” or whatever. I genuinely think I’m doomed to be alone for the rest of my life. For as long as I can remember I’ve never been able to make friends even in the so called easier years where all you had to do is walk up to a kid in elementary and say let’s play so and so. I may have had school friends in elementary and junior high but I’ve never been invited anywhere or if I had invited people they wouldn’t show up. Coming high school I struggle to even related to my peers and despite being on the basketball team I didn’t get along well with them either despite spending years with them on the court and in class but no more than that. Now I’m in college and despite trying to immerse myself in clubs around campus I just cant do it. I can’t get people to want to associate with me for more than a damn week. I’m tired of being ghosted or ignored. I’m tired of it all and I don’t know what to do.