I'll be turning 22 this month but I've already failed in life because of social anxiety. I didn't go to university because after finishing high school with good grades even, the COVID pandemic started to spread out, so I had to work wage jobs for a couple years to keep bread on the table and I started to care way less about myself. I've also found a lot of fake friends during that time that would just try to scam me, act all helpful n shit due to how naiive I was from the social anxiety. I've done a lot of mistakes since COVID but the one thing I hate myself the most for is not going to university, even through it was all out of my control with the money problems I had. I've learned a lot since then by reading books but I just can't escape from these thoughts that I ruined my life by not joining Uni. I still think about joining but now I feel way too late. I just wish I was someone else sometimes with a better life situation. The past just keeps following me.