It’s been a crazy few months

I broke up with my GF a couple months ago after our relationship became one sided and then a couple weeks later I was fired from my office job which sent me into a dark place mentally.

I have since got a new job as a hotel porter which I enjoy much more because I get to work on my feet and be part of a physical team. Also it has a more flexible schedule so I have more time to myself to pursue videography which is my passion.

Despite this, I feel very unmotivated and I know that nothing I will do will build into anything meaningful. There a more talented people who are more organized than I am. I really want to do well but I simply do not see value in myself.

I am 26 and my older friends say that I am still young but I’m feeling pressure to have significance in my life. From my break up I have realized I put too much dependence on other people for happiness and don’t find happiness within myself.

I feel this vent seems a little all over the place but these are the thoughts plaguing my mind.

I hope everyone has had something good happen to them today ❤️