last night i fell to the ground and sobbed at the realization that i truly hate myself. i’ve been on a “healing journey” for a little less than a year now and really thought i had begun to love myself. over the last few months i’ve had some interpersonal relationships fall apart or get damaged in ways that has made me question my worth and made me wonder if i’ve always been the main problem in my life the whole time. people hate me and i can’t quite figure out if they’re right to anymore. i believed for quite some time i was capable and worthy of changing but there’s no one that loves me or validates i’m a good person. i’ve never hated anyone more than me. how do you move on from here? how do you begin to learn to love yourself? i hear all these things about cultivating self love, but i don’t know how to even start to do that when i’m so awful.