I dont know why i feel empty these days , i've been thinking for the past couple of weeks of how when i feared something and the fear was clear to me , i used to be able to dedicate all my energy and focus towards a goal , where i have to achieve it or achieve and there was no scenario in my head where i dont achieve it.

Now since i'm going through my days with an empty soul , i feel nothing, i have no pain nor any fears .it is super hard for me to really do anything that can make my life better in the future.

I have a couple of addictions that i dont even have the desire to get rid of them.

I've reached a point where i'm throwing away my job not caring about it , throwing away health , my mind and i wish , i just only wish i have some fear that can move my body towards something productive.

And if i continue like this it will be my end at one point in the near future.