I have many intense desires, obsessive actually. I wont eat and will waste what precious little time off work I get to peruse them. Unfortunately, the strongest of my desires is sexual, so involves me wasting countless hours online on tinder, reddit ect looking for people to help me fill these desires. They don't go away if i just fap on my own, if i go outside, engage in a hobby, even while I'm at work they're still burning a hole in my brain. I get attracted and aroused by the dumbest shit and its just frustrating. I work out regularly and have a physical job, so just going to the gym, doing pushups or having a cold shower doesnt help me because i do that stuff anyway. I just went on a long run and still feel a shameful, perverted desire inside me. Its not going to be fulfilled anytime soon, i recently attempted to re-enter the dating world after a long period of self improvement and isolation, first date i went on she stood me up and blocked my socials. Struggling to see how i can improve my situation and wonder if i should seek help for my obsessive behaviour.

Sorry its so long, feel free to ignore me. Thank you to anyone who read that mess of a post.