I have literally nobody to talk to besides a therapist. I'm alone, I have social anxiety, I have clinical depression and I can't remember the last time I felt happy. While other people enjoy life I tend to sit in my room and find things to learn, just so I have something to do. I feel like I'm running out of time even though I know that I have many years ahead of me I'm not sure if I want any more. I'm from enfield ct, USA and I realize I need help, sometimes it feels like I'm too smart for my own good even though I can't seem to grasp basic grammar and English which is my primary and only language. I smoke marijuana mainly because it helps me feel something other than hatred for myself and chronic depression. I just don't know anymore, I feel like like I don't belong. Is there anybody in a similar situation as me who happens to be in my area who may want to meet and talk or try to form friendship or practice human interaction? I figured it would be easier if the people involved understood each others situation. If not I guess I'm screwed but I figure it's worth trying.