Essentially I'm too lazy to say much but that's what I usually say before a long post haha 🤣

I come from a family of narcists. They all have sociopathic tendencies, and now on my journey to the light I've developed this too. I was always a bit selfish as a kid. I think I've become less selfish so that's the narcisstic trait I've lessened but now Im very fragile after 4 psychotic breakdowns. So I need to prioritize myself a bit I take meds which make me tired aswell.

I just realized I've been self harming and feeling like my relaxation is evil. And that's becuase of my upbringing. I recognize that now and am trying to let go of it now. I'm a good person, everyone tells me this, I don't need to worry I'm hurting people just with my body.. well obviously if I touched someone but without laying a finger on you I believe I can harm you.. it's like I can't have one without the other sometimes, either self harm/sabotage or breathing hurts people..! I'm fucked. Anyone relate or anything? Thx for reading this alot longer than expected post ♥️♥️