TW: sexual abuse

I recently started seeing a therapist who suggested that my sexual tendencies may be a form of self harm. I’ve never considered it before, so I’m posting to see if anyone else can relate to my experience.

For the past several years I’ve been hyper sexual to a high degree, hooking up with strangers regularly. I was sexually abused by family when I was younger, but I feel I’m a strong person and don’t consider the past to affect me much today. I’ve repeatedly broken up with romantic partners using the excuse that I wanted to “have fun,” and I’ve put myself in dangerous situations with strangers on a regular basis. I’ve had 3 abortions in the last 10 years as well, and have been beaten up by several men during encounters.

I always viewed this as a kink, telling myself I enjoyed being used, passed around, and treated poorly. Now I think that all this time it’s been a form of self harm, but I’m not sure.

Sorry if this post is not helpful, but I’m confused right now.