I was on Instagram scrolling through reels and I saw one about someone's sh scars fading and I'm happy for them ! But like now I have a crippling urge to relaspe because my scars are fading and I am just like 🕺💃😉👍! So great! That like I want to relaspe and I litteraly start my job next week that requires me to be around young children in short sleeves and shorts, I really don't want to relaspe but gosh is it tempting. But I think it's also because I am sad and I'm trying to make myself feel happy because why sad when nothing sad happened to you today but nooooo my emotions said fuck you and go die. I think my brain is too used to being silly :3