I don't know how to describe this the best without coming across wrong. For weeks I've had this nagging need of cutting. It comes up every few months and every time I fall for it again. I don't know how to beat it. Today I 'finally' caved in after failing to make it go away other ways. I tried alcohol, I tried nicotine, I tried talking to friends but nothing worked. I don't really have a therapist at the moment who I can talk to and finding one can take ages. I don't know what else to do, it feels like I'm trapped in this stupid cycle, doomed to repeat myself until I get so bad that it kills me. Worst thing is, even now after the relaspe, I want to continue, make it worse. I just want this all to stop